Untitled: Entry #11


All I wanted was to see the Geminids meteor shower but it turns out, I didn’t need a shooting star. πŸ™‚

Thank you friends for a great night. I could write about all the conversations (and you know I would) but maybe not this time.

Thank you for the bands who played last night. You guys are awesome. β™₯ Β Autotelic, Mayonnaise, Silent Sanctuary, Franco, Urbandub and Parokya ni Edgar. And to the organizers, congratulations and thank you!

Best way to end the semester. β™₯ Β πŸ™‚



The past few days/weeks have been a hell of a ride. There were a number of ups and downs, but mostly downs. You know they say, “when it rains, it pours”? Mine poured all at the same time, I almost drowned. Luckily, I have people I can turn to when I can no longer stand the pain. People who pulled me out of the cold blue waters.

Have you ever asked yourself what would become of you when you have no one to turn to when you’re in deep deep pain? Should you really just hide whatever you’re feeling deep inside?

I say, NO.

Could you imagine yourself keeping every single feeling, all the pain and sorrow in your heart. You let this fill you up until your heart can no longer take it. It’s filled you up that you suddenly burst. Can you imagine how it would actually feel to explode just like a bomb?

It’s an interesting thought, but I daresay that you should never let your pain engulf you. Share the burden if you must. Sometimes it’s not enough to shout your thoughts into thin air, you sometimes need a living thing to actually hear you out and punch you, slap you, or hug you when you need it and when you deserve it.


I do not regret telling my story, because if I did not do that, I would have succumbed to the pain, I would most probably have exploded. I say this not to spark a war. I say this because I know you feel pain, I do, too. I try my very best to be okay, because what good would it do me to keep myself so low? And I am genuinely concerned about you, if I haven’t made that clear. But I just cannot talk to someone, who obviously does not want to talk to me. This is my emotional dump site. It has always been. That never really changed.


I never really thanked you guys enough. Sobrang maraming salamat, although, wag nyo na akong asarin please. I pour my heart out once, enough na yun. πŸ™‚

PPS Hello Vicky and Darren for the wonderful idea of exploding. πŸ˜›

Merry Christmas

Because the circumstances won’t allow a full entry. Let’s just settle for a

Merry Christmas everyone!


Let’s not forget the true spirit of the festivity. πŸ™‚
And give love on Christmas day! Yes? πŸ™‚

Thank you for the wonderful gift. That is you. β™₯

Last Last Night

Because we're awesome. :)) <3

Because we’re awesome. :)) ❀

Last last night, I sat with a set-man. He was working for a television network as a set-man for nine years. Nine years of hard work and perseverance. It was a unique experience. Just listening to a person who really knows what hard work meant.

Working for television productions teams, they have to go to their network channel early in the morning and pick up their materials. Travel to their designated shooting place and stay under the rain or the scorching heat of the sun, for an entire day, even past 24-hours, they make everything we see on TV possible, without these men carrying around cameras, lighting systems and everything else behind the lenses, do you think it’ll be possible to catch the watchful eyes of their audiences?

I leave the answer to you. But what amazed me the most was the fact that, no matter how small people think of them, nothing that they do was really small. With his job, which others might call a no-brainer job, this man was able to buy land and build his own house. Which is in fact is one of my dreams right now, a dream that is just a little too far from actuality since I have no means to earn that much money.

So really what is my point? An anecdote of a random chat with a simple member of the country’s work force?

Actually no, I am more concerned with letting people know that even with small things, big things can be achieved. People may look down on you, but it doesn’t really matter, what matters is how much effort you have put in to be able to rise up and prove them wrong.

This man said, non-verbatim:

“Kahit na mahirap yung trabaho ko, ayos lang. Pinag-isipan ko kasi, nung mga panahon na nakatambay lang ako, anong mangyayari sakin? Mabuti nang pagod ako, mayroon namang perang mapansusustento sa pamilya ko, kaysa maging pabigat sa lipunan.”

(Even though my work is quite difficult, it’s fine. I had the chance to think during the time that I wasn’t working, what would become of me? I thought that it is best that I work and get tired, and have money to fund for my family than be a burden to society.)

I was surprised to hear that from him, really, he didn’t seem the type of person that would think of work in such a manner. And I thought to myself, do I see my work as something this enlightening? Do I believe that i have to work to be of use to the society, or do I just want to sit here and do nothing for the improvement of the country and myself? I smiled and thought, no. I wouldn’t want to be an agent of the country’s downfall. I will be an agent of change for the betterment of the people around me atleast, and it will all start with myself.

It will start with simple things that I will do. Goals I will accomplish and trials and failures that I will face. No matter how hard the work is, I will give it my best and exert all the effort possible, it’s not enough to just try, we should always give our best, for we never really know who sees the good in everything that we do.

And last night, I appreciate my work even more. No matter how tired and drained I am for the past days for last night’s performance, it was all WORTH IT. It wasn’t winning that was fulfilling, it was actually being able to reach out to people and make them look at the same direction that you want to take them to. And for that I would really like to thank and commend my batchmates for being the best batchmates and friends. Congratulations for our victory and thank you for showing dedication in whatever we did.

And of course, I would like to thank Madam Dwinnie for recognizing all my efforts and for the Best Committee Member for WAM for this academic year. I just really love working with WAM that, work doesn’t feel like work anymore. :)) ❀ Thank you so much!

Again, congratulations KEM batch 2011! Champions in the recently concluded Talentine 2014. ❀ Love you guys! πŸ™‚